K-Pop Stan Twitter Accounts: The Lesson I Learned
Yup…you read the title right. That’s exactly what I’m gonna write about for this post: K-pop Stan Twitter Accounts.
I think many of you are familiar with the ever-growing community of “stan accounts” on Twitter and literally every social media platform that exists (this post will focus on K-pop twitter accounts).
For those who don’t know the term “stan”, it’s basically just another word for fan. I tried to find some good definitions but lots of them say “overzealous or obsessive fan” which can be true but does not reflect all stans out there.
I was part of the K-pop stan Twitter community.
You know the one where we run an account solely for the purpose to stay updated with our favorite idols, groups, etc. And through that maybe, if we were outgoing enough, we could start communicating with others who like the same people/things we do.
Although, running those accounts requires our opinions/thoughts about something, it was never about us. Ourselves. It was never about me. It was for someone else.
I had a “main account” for two years until recently did I decide I would abandon it forever. I have it on private just because it was something precious to me. My favorite member of a particular group mentioned me during a mention party and I guess I’m not ready to just delete that history yet.
Disclaimer: This post is not attacking, undermining, or reflecting anyone with stan accounts. This is just my personal reflection and experiences.
Starting out my account that September of 2015, I was innocent and oblivious. I didn’t really think about what I was tweeting about. Didn’t have much followers in the beginning either of course. But I reached the highest sometime in 2017 with 4,300 followers about. I was doing well with it too.
Mentioned by three different idols during a mention party, got lots of retweets for my posts about my favorite groups, my threads thrived, and more. You could say I was a successful fan or at least on the verge of being one.
And then abandoned it.
The question is…why did I do that?
Well, here is my explanation. Just recently did I ask myself, “Why do I give so much love to all these idols?” Yes, they are amazing, beautiful, gorgeous, talented, precious, *inserts other stan twitter vocab*, etc.
But it was to the point where I stopped to think about the things that make me appreciate myself.
I never took pictures of myself because why would I need to? I had too many pictures of people on my phone who are not me already who are more beautiful.
Tweet update about my own life? Nah…I can just tweet about someone else’s picture and how much I love it so much.
This probably sounds exaggerated and honestly it probably is but on a greater scale of things, this is the best explanation I could give. Just hold on.
It’s just sad.
Because some people can get so into that world of stan twitter that that’s really all they care about. Sure, many go back because of their internet friends and that freedom of being able to express their love for some group. That a part of happiness, for them, equates to being on their account. I totally understand that because that was me back then, too.
I questioned, “Why is it so easy for us to say so-and-so is precious just by seeing a GIF of them smiling?”
When it comes to ourselves though, it’s just something normal.
Even the most trivial things an idol does, we seem to so easily praise them. They’d blink and we would tweet “omg so cute”. They’d stare at something and we would tweet “amazing, life-changing, one-of-a-kind!”
And I just thought to myself, “Why can’t we praise ourselves that easily too?”
I’m sure that everyone behind those accounts are just as special, amazing, and talented in their own ways. But once you put your account over (basically) your life, we tend to forget that. A small but significant portion of our lives is suddenly used to praise someone else and that’s when things go wrong.
Although it was hard at first, I decided to deactivate my accounts (yes I had a few) to let me find back the love and praise for myself that at some point in time, I lost. Some may scoff at that because how hard could it be to just deactivate an account, right?
It can be hard. Because for a long time, I thought my accounts were some sources of my peace and happiness. They were my go-to place whenever there was a break, at lunch, after a long study session, on holidays. When I was sad, happy, mad, every emotion in between, I escaped into the world of Twitter.
I had to throw that away.
I had to convince myself that I would be okay without my accounts, that I will find other “happy places” to go to. But this time, happy places that would consider myself as a part of the world. Not just a world where I am just another stan of some person.
It’s been awhile since I stopped being on stan twitter and honestly, I couldn’t be even more happier.
I’m not taking a whole stop from all things K-pop as my solution, I still keep a private account with no followers except my two real-life friends to keep update. My solution is to make that part of me to not take up all of my life.
To this day, I admit that my favorite groups and idols are a source of happiness for me but I have promised myself that they won’t be everything I care about. Of course I’ll still keep praising them and 100% still call them cute or amazing even when they do the most trivial things. Because you know…I’m still a fangirl after all.
But one thing will change.
I will remember to praise myself as easily as well.