As the new year ends, it’s time for the resolutions or better – goals and hopes – for the new year. Everyone will look at 2018 differently. It could be an exciting year, a sad year, or even a whatever-years-pass-by-and-come year.
Whatever it is, even if the concept of “years” were just made up by humans, it is a good stopping point in everyone’s life to reflect on. New years let us reflect on what we’ve done and can show us what we can improve in as well.
2018 will be an important year for me. I could even say that it will be a bittersweet year.
Even though I still have until June 2019, I believe I can say that 2018 will be my last “full” year of being a high-schooler.
I am so blessed to have been born into such a loving and wonderful family and more than anything, I am afraid to leave. To leave and start my new adult life alone. I don’t want to leave.
So from that, I decided on the first goal to start us off.
1 Spend as much precious time with family as we can.
I hope everyone spends as much time with their loved ones as they can. Really no matter what age we are, family is important. Whether we’re 3 crawling around the house, 10 struggling with homework, 16 drowned in high-school drama, 20 starting to find their adult life, and so on.
Our families will be the ones to always be there. At 3, they will help you walk. At 10, they will help you with your homework. 16, talk with you and find solutions. 20, be there to tell you that they’ll support you in anything you do.
I am a huge family girl but never have the actual time to represent that name through action. And I regret that. But I’m working on it.
Spend time with your family because you never know how time will change them. Your little, 4-year-old brother? Oh…now he’s 12. Your mom and dad…uhm, how old are they? We don’t even need to know their ages – it’s okay. It’s reflected on their faces. But they’re still the beautiful and amazing people you once looked up at when you were little.
Even just having a small chat about literally anything that comes to mind is enough. Share smiles, laughter, and feelings. And promise to never lose that, that connection.
I’m sorry, Thank you, I love you.
Oh no. Cliche alert. But. It’s an appropriate one; it has a purpose.
Sometimes, because it’s just family, we forget to say these things to them. We think it’s too much that we believe phrases like these don’t need to be said.
If these phrases are easy for you to say to your family, I applaud you. Good job. Although, it may seem trivial to you, actions like yours are very important and sometimes hard to do.
But I know that there are many who still feel awkward and that’s okay. Throw away whatever is inhibiting you from saying the phrases naturally. Make it a habit, say it often. Everything takes time.
But don’t let time take away our everything. Don’t let time pass by so easily that we forget to appreciate, cherish, and spend time with our families.
2 Don’t be discouraged when you don’t understand something.
As I am still in high-school, I am always in this situation. I always pity myself when I realize myself feeling down because I just can’t understand a thing in class.
It’s the feeling of frustration and hopelessness when you want to understand something but you just can’t. It’s the desire to be able to contribute in a discussion or help to solve a problem but don’t know how.
For example, it’s me in physics class watching my friend give her input to the teacher about some particular problem. Wishing I could say something relevant and most importantly, wishing I could understand. At times like this, I feel so gloomy.
Sometimes, I cry.
I always tell my brother how if I could watch myself at that moment, I would cry at the sight. The sight of Conchita wanting so much to understand but just can’t even after all the late nights studying and trying to understand.
And just as expected, that makes me feel down for the rest of the day. Which leads to me not being able to do my very best that day of school. If I could reset half of this school year, all I would want to do is sit up straighter and tell myself that I will get it one day. Tell myself that I can do it.
Just because you don’t understand something, doesn’t mean you will never understand it one day. I don’t know if anyone ever feels the same as I do but if you do, you’re not alone. I just want to tell you that don’t get frustrated with yourself, don’t let those one or two things you can’t get in your head impact your whole day.
Everyday, we have so much potential to do our very best in all the things we need to do so don’t waste it. Don’t don’t lose all your energy because of one thing.
3 Build a healthier relationship with food.
This is hard for me to write about but it is definitely something I need to admit to and try to solve (I may also write about this on a future post). This is also probably the culprit to my over-tiredness especially during school.
Sounds normal, huh? But it’s not your typical high-schooler coming to school complaining they’re tired every other morning…it’s every day, every hour, every class.
From fifth-grade, I’ve developed a bad relationship with food and eating in general. It stayed until now. In summary, a fifth-grader became extremely self-conscious about her body and then proceeded to lose a lot of weight in a short amount of time unhealthily.
The most extreme years were during sixth, seventh, and eighth grades. It didn’t show on my face that I was having a hard time; I looked normal. But I barely ate and got myself sick many times.
To this day,
I’m still scared of eating “too much” food. In a day, at most, I eat one meal and it isn’t even a proper meal. I know it must impact my stamina for the day in some way but I never made a change. Because I just can’t overcome the thought that I might gain weight whenever I reach for food.
The only times I let myself eat are the times I’m with family or friends. Not just any friends but closest friends. I don’t know the reason but that’s just how I function. Somehow, if I am with them, I am okay with eating happily.
Of course, my eating habits have improved since then but there are many flaws in it still that I must fix. I’m setting this goal for myself to eat healthily to improve my energy during the day and to just have better thoughts about food.
I want to perform better in class: be in class. I never let myself get the energy that I need and this year, even if the process is slow, I hope to improve my eating.
Looking back, I don’t think I have thought about any other goals. These are only my self-improvement and not including any school achievement goals.
Because just like everyone, school goals are a must and everyone has the same one or at least the form is the same: better grades, better study habits, better test prep, and so on. So, it’s not very important for this post.
I dream to be happier this year, to be able to make my parents and family proud. I dream to build a bright future for myself.
Whether our dreams for the new year are short and sweet or long and very detailed, they are still our hopes and dreams.
Now, it’s our job to fulfill them the best we can.